always playing catch up
Jan. 28th, 2003 11:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
duhneesei feel so blah lately. and anxious i guess. why is there never
enough money? it seems like i will never recover from
christmas. this happens every year. i work hard and i work full time but it never gets any easier. oh and i need my brakes done soooooooo bad. it's bad. i mean like metal on metal bad and i know it's fucking up the rotors. ugh. expenses just seem higher these days. and i am not taking any vacations or buying new wardrobes. i mean just the basics are tough. it was easier when allie was younger. teenagers are expensive dammit! i really need to talk to my ex about increasing his child support and i have just been putting it off. i don't want to get into it with him. and who knows, maybe he won't even blink....it's just the thought of fighting about it that makes me avoid it. i need to deal with it though. i just don't want to beg. allie spends 90% of her time with me and i know the original calculation of child support 6 years ago was not based on that. he was supposed to share custody but because of how far away he lives and the hours he works, he doesn't see her as much as was planned. so i think it's fair. and hell, he can afford it. i don't know, i just don't want it to look like *i* am being greedy.
and so, i worry about money and i don't say anything.
enough money? it seems like i will never recover from
christmas. this happens every year. i work hard and i work full time but it never gets any easier. oh and i need my brakes done soooooooo bad. it's bad. i mean like metal on metal bad and i know it's fucking up the rotors. ugh. expenses just seem higher these days. and i am not taking any vacations or buying new wardrobes. i mean just the basics are tough. it was easier when allie was younger. teenagers are expensive dammit! i really need to talk to my ex about increasing his child support and i have just been putting it off. i don't want to get into it with him. and who knows, maybe he won't even blink....it's just the thought of fighting about it that makes me avoid it. i need to deal with it though. i just don't want to beg. allie spends 90% of her time with me and i know the original calculation of child support 6 years ago was not based on that. he was supposed to share custody but because of how far away he lives and the hours he works, he doesn't see her as much as was planned. so i think it's fair. and hell, he can afford it. i don't know, i just don't want it to look like *i* am being greedy.
and so, i worry about money and i don't say anything.
