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duhneeseevery night now, when i come to bed, no matter what time, you wake and put your arms around me. sometimes it's a comfortable spooning, other times i rest my head on your shoulder and you gently caress my hair and shoulders.
every morning now, when you wake, you rise, take your shower and dress. then you come back to bed and lie down with me. my head on your shoulder again, smoothing my hair again, sometimes only for 20 minutes. then you rise again to finish dressing.
and finally, just before you leave our room, you lean down and kiss me goodbye..."have a good day".
it's heaven. it's how it always should have been. it makes me so very happy. it FEELS like you love me.
but i know it's just an illusion. i'm not sure why, maybe it's the guilt you feel for leaving me.....
i know you're trying to make things good until the end. it's as if i am approaching certain death and we have been granted this final time together.
every morning now, when you wake, you rise, take your shower and dress. then you come back to bed and lie down with me. my head on your shoulder again, smoothing my hair again, sometimes only for 20 minutes. then you rise again to finish dressing.
and finally, just before you leave our room, you lean down and kiss me goodbye..."have a good day".
it's heaven. it's how it always should have been. it makes me so very happy. it FEELS like you love me.
but i know it's just an illusion. i'm not sure why, maybe it's the guilt you feel for leaving me.....
i know you're trying to make things good until the end. it's as if i am approaching certain death and we have been granted this final time together.